A long time
It's been a long time. I've gone through the idea of a reunion more than 100 times in my head, but it ultimately didn't prepare me for this spontaneous decision to emerge from the shadows.
There are so many things that I want to say, but find it hard to find a place to begin or even what to express.
It's strange. I found the archive of the old channel and actually remembered some of the stuff that I wrote. I remember sitting there in my room on the chair typing this shit out. It hit me pretty hard. I miss those days.
I think outright that I should apologize to everyone that I was a dick to. I was going through a really hard time, and while it is no excuse I just wish for you all to understand.
Things have gone dark since we last spoken. There have been good times, and a lot of bad times. It's been a roller coaster of events that have. Life is strange like that.
To Shin. I'm sorry for being such a piece of shit. You were a good friend and I never appreciated that.
Minty. I've missed you, bitch. I really have out of anyone in the past 10 years. I've thought about you quite a bit. I'm sorry I dropped off of the face of the world, but terrible unimaginable things happened in rapid succession and I was not well. I started to think that you hated me for some odd reason. Everything was hurting my feelings deeply and the idea that I was a burden or an obligation was messing my meat up inside. It was stupid and robbed me of time and friendship. I ended up going down a really horrible road after I left.
Perhaps we can talk about it all and catch up.
I'm glad you are fine. I've finally found a bit of stability in my life. I'd like to think I am not as needy anymore.