What's the Point of It All
Everything is shit.
No point. Just keep smiling and moving.
ssssshh... it doesn't need to have a point. just find your own purpose n do what makes you happy :3
>>45014
Smiling is for happy people.
>>45015
You contradicted yourself in just two sentences. If I should do what makes me happy, then that's /the point/. And that's a point I cannot agree with. Being "happy" is not a life-goal that is in any way interesting to me. I don't see why that should be a great thing to strive for.
I want to produce good things, but I cannot, because I suck too much at everything, and that has held true for way too long now already, to the point that I don't know if I'll ever manage to do something that isn't either irrelevant, stupid, complete garbage, or a combination thereof. In other words: everything is shit.
>>45016
what i meant though, is that there doesn't need to be a universal point (which is like, why you askin' others what the point is?)... your life is like your own moldable ball of clay, the point is what you make of it... it becomes what you want it to be. and i don't understand why being happy is not a life goal. i feel happy when i make something i'm proud of. do you not feel the same way when you build something?
you may be spreading yourself too thin and trying to be good at too many things when you should pick one or two things n just stick with those... it doesn't have to be irrelevant though. irrelevant to who? to you? if you feel it is irrelevant, then why are you doing it?
>>45017
You may now notice that there isn't a question mark in the title. It is a rhetorical question, because there is no point. Any point is arbitrary and purely self-declaimed, and that's extremely obvious to anyone who isn't just stupid.
Let's take an analytical, logical approach to why I think the way I do:
The first primary logic that needs to be established is that of value. How can one establish what's worth more than something else. To me what seems sensible, is that in order for something to have a greater value, it needs to provide a greater ratio of use to production cost. Now, what qualifies as 'use'. Basically anything that has a beneficiary factor in some fashion. If it is a recurring one, even better. Let's say, watching TV has a one-time use of lightening your mood a little, whereas making a drawing has a recurring use of providing entertainment to potentially many, many people.
Second we need some kind of concept of 'good' and 'bad'. Using our value system this can be quite sensibly expressed as follows "Actions that increase net value are good. Actions that do not, or actively decrease it, are bad." Consequently people that are actively hindering other people's productivity are evil.
Using this system we now establish that slacking about is bad, whereas making things is good. However, we can go a step further and realise that we have an additional constraint that demands any possible path to improve the efficiency or quality of produce must be taken, or the current modus operandi would be bad. Following from this we see that nothing is ever good enough. There's always better, and you should always strive for it.
Looking at this we now have a conundrum. Going from seemingly sane base establishments of value, we arrive at a very harsh situation, something that usually people take as "being too hard [on yourself]".
Obviously what I've explained above is a philosophical system and isn't actually something that goes on in my mind consciously. It's what I realised my thinking process must be like (at least in a way) in order to be able to explain why I frequently get into severe mood problems. To recap: I do things because making things is good. I am not good enough at making things and should strive to become better at them. Whether or not that makes me happy does not factor into this unless it actively hinders my productivity, which it does not for the most part. Being proud of things leads to overlooking or excusing flaws, which is contrary to my goals.
My primary problem is scheduling, as I cannot efficiently allocate time for the individual areas of improvement, leading to a lot of time being wasted almost completely. This, coupled with the frequent inability to make or notice any progress or development, builds up large amounts of mental stress. When this stress breaches a threshold I falter into a depressive, distant mindset and start to whine about until things clear up again and can resume my usual routine.
This thread was the result of such a breach coupled with the unfortunate circumstance of nobody else being around to take care of my idiotic blabbering during such a time.
I hope this at least gives some kind of insight into why I say the things I do. Maybe it doesn't. Oh well, I tried.
Everything is shit except cute 2hus and animus, and the internet sometimes
>>45459
The internet is overwhelmingly shit. So much so even that statistically it's 100% shit.
Edit: and don't even get me started on anime.
>>45460
This website isn't shit.
As for anime, at least it's adorable shit.
>>45462
Idunno about that man, it's pretty damn gay.
Unfortunately, just adorableness doesn't cut it for me.
>>45464
I mean sure, everyone here is a fabulous winged faggot by definition, but that doesn't mean the site is shit. A little faggotry never hurt anyone.
I suppose *just* adorableness doesn't quite cut it for me either; I like it mixed with a little humor and a little heartwarmingness. But slice of life also isn't the only genre of anime out there.
>>45468
I only really like two types of anime, ones that are either complete insanity so that I can't think about it (Nichijou) or ones that have actual proper depth and good writing to them (GitS:SAC, Mushishi). Unfortunately those are very rare. Most of the stuff is just garbage.
>>45472
I love Nichijou, it's so fucking good.
If you want proper depth and good writing, as well as a really cool visual style, you should check out the Monogatari series.
https://www.reddit.com/r/araragi/comments/253p64/the_orders_to_monogatari_condensed_version/
You may also enjoy Legend of the Galactic Heroes. It's a really long oldie but goodie. Very political.
>>45534
I've seen most of the monogatari stuff, though haven't felt like catching up with the latest season yet.
On my end I can also recommend Darker than Black (only the first season though, the rest is garbage), and Katanagatari for the more serious ones, and Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-Kun, and Barakamon for the light-hearted ones.
I have no idea what my boss or superiors think of me at this point. I'm getting really burnt out for some reason despite working less than my previous job. I come home to an empty apartment too exhausted to engage in anything active or engaging. I'm starting to feel that "adult" feeling of "work, eat, sleep, repeat" except I have exercise to prevent total body breakdown. The last few weekends I have had to drive home (which is a 4 hour drive one-way) for things like doctor's appointment (the 1 year rotation thing makes it pointless to switch) and family obligation crap. So no real decompress time either to build my model or enjoy not thinking about work.
Yet, I like my job. I just don't understand how this balance is supposed to work. I'm not sure what the point of all this is if I can't talk to my friends or am too tired to use my free time to enjoy myself. I really wish most of my friends had a similar schedule to mine, but they are all night shift people or Europeans, making my nights lonely and filled with angst. Anyway, I thought this fit in the topic and just wanted to vent.
Lum makes life better. You should find her and embrace her love.
>>45553
Well hey, now next weekend you can finally enjoy movie night again! Is there anything you'd like to watch or perhaps play in particular? I could see if I can arrange something for you.
As for your free time, find a hobby. Get into drawing, writing, tinkering, something like that. Something small and relaxing that you can do at any point in time without needing to prepare for it. Doing anything of that sort I can promise you will prove very relaxing. It gives you an outlet and something to do on your time off. Perhaps you could also get into RC stuff, since you seem to enjoy putting together model kits. Or maybe you could try getting into digital composition; check out some audio tools and start playing around with them, see what kinda tunes you can make.
One of my largest issues is that after work, gym, and the fucking grueling 1 hour drive back home, I lose motivation. Honestly, I blame myself since the 1 hour drive is THE largest issue. I chose to live closer to the actual city instead of bumfuck nowhere, but I go to work far more than I go out, so the trade-off was really bad. Do you have any idea how to start into RC stuff? I can't into music because my emotions are muted and monotone, which isn't good for making music of any sort.
>>45562
Well it depends on which things you're interested in. If it's boats, planes, or helicopters you'll need to see that you get the right kinda environment for it first. Obviously boats will need a large enough lake (you'd be surprised at how large it has to be to really get anything out of it) and planes and helicopters need pretty large, empty fields– preferably wind-free. Trees are fucking death incarnate to those. Cars are probably the easiest to get going with since everyone has a road somewhere close-by, and there's buggies that also work for rough terrain.
Then the question is whether you want to go with electric or heavy-duty benzine ones. I'd heavily recommend the former, because unless you really need lots and lots of fucking power, it's just infinitely more convenient due to lower maintenance, lower prices, and higher availability.
For planes, I don't know what to suggest anymore– I've been out of the loop for too long to know. Last I knew there were some made out of styrofoam which are neat because they can be pretty durable. Otherwise we've only ever used ones made out of balsa wood ourselves, which often required repairs and such and so we had to go to specialist hobby stores to get that kinda stuff.
For helicopters, there's double-rotor ones that you can get for real cheap nowadays and they are quite easy to get the hang of. Definitely where you should start out. There's even miniature ones for inside buildings and stuff.
As for ships– I don't know anymore either, it's been a while. We used to build our own buying the different parts from hobby stores, but that requires quite a bit of insight into how things work and have to be assembled to not transform your x100$ ship into seaweed within the first second of letting it to water.
And as for cars, I never really knew to begin with. I've had some weird Lego thing that you could construct in different ways for a very long time that I liked a lot, but I doubt it's still available. And even if it were there's probably better options out there nowadays.
Generally though, just look around the net. For things like this there should be an over-abundance of information out there. Just be wary of really flashy looking expensive shit, that can easily trick you into wasting a lot of money. And of course, be wary of all the big-headed shitheads that try to brag about whatever expensive garbage they just bought and how it's the only good thing out there.
As for the motivation– the point of this exercise is to *gain* motivation back. You'll have something to look forward to doing at the end of the day and that can keep you going. I wouldn't scratch off all the other suggestions I've made quite so quick. It takes a certain attitude to get it all into motion, but I'm sure you should be able to figure it out if you gave it a shot.
Dropped every class except English. Just going to keep training and try to find a better job this year.
>>45571
Be a NEET!
>>45576
Better idea: suicide
>>45577
Well, if you ever have any violent urges, like you want to murder someone slowly and painfully, don't hesitate to hit me up.
>>45581
There's hobos for that